… Could it be?

Am I in actual love?? I hate not talking to him now… I’m addicted to him… His voice, his touch, his kiss… His dick… I wanna be his one and only. We already have a kid together… But it’s just recently I realized, how much I just love being in his company, how much I love him touching me… Just everything… I’ve NEVER felt like this with any guy… I THOUGHT I was falling for Chris, but when he did what he did, I saw how dumb I was being. But this one, it’s, at least I hope it is, for real. Only problem is, we have so much shit in our way, that if he felt that way about me like I believe he does, we can’t be like we wanna be. Truth is… If I didn’t straight up tell him to leave me alone after I chose to keep our daughter, we’ve probably would have been in that place, by now. Truth is… I missed him the moment I did what I did. Truth is… I was always “in love” with him.